| Location | Braunstone |
| Age | 16 years |
| Date of Birth | 12/1990 |
| Date of Death | 9/2007 |
| Visitors | 42,054 since 09/09/2007 |
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Taylor Was Special In Every Way, He Was Such A Great Lad And Loved By Many People, He Was Always Smiling! He Called Me Banana Girl! And Il Never Forget That.. Always Thinkin Of you And Im So Sorry To The Family For Losing Such A Lovely Person Taylor.. Tru Soldier I Know You Lukin Down On Us And We Love You So Much And Miss You So Much Rest In Peace! x x x
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hope you had a beauitful christmas Tay-Tay another christmas,another New Year, another year without you in my life, I'll forever love and miss you B, your in the safest place, but why he took you i wish i could :( all my love from me and the lil miss..xx
I've not been on here in a while because I feel like I'm always putting the same thing. But then I thought well who cares what I put I'm only really putting this to you. I have documents after documents of things I've written to you but sometimes writing on here feels like I'm closer in some way.
I was just on Facebook and a friend of yours posted some video's of you and your friends back in the day, just messing around in town and having a laugh. You came on the screen doing some mad dance move and something just hit me right in the stomach. It was almost as if I had forgotten that you were here with us all if that makes sense. It's been so long without you that I think the numb grief has taken over me lately, alot more than the physical grief. So I had sort of programmed myself not to remember you here, seemed to have happened to me automatically with time. But then your big smile came on to my screen and that was it. Emotional wreck. I haven't cried like that in a long time. Haven't felt that gut-wrechingly frustrating pain of being without you. I used to have video's of you but lost the cd like a fool (the arguments I've had with myself!) so I've not seen actual footage of you in so long it just caught me off guard. Made it all so real again.
Anyway, I've rambled, as usual. I hope you liked what we all did for your birthday. I hope you laughed along with us and cheered when mine and Matt's lantern FINALLY made it into the sky.
I love you Tay. Don't ever forget how much I miss you, and I won't either.
x
Merry christmas Taylor x
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sorri i never managed to get dwn and lay some flowers babe but never had any transport felt terrible i aint forgotten u mate always think of u pair . its hard u not being around miss u pal xxx
I love you Taylor....
I think the days and especially the night before will always be worse for me.
Took Tori childminders today. I have to pass nearby your school but today instead of going the street by it, after dropping Tori, I drove to the school and turned into it.
It was 9.15. All the children were in their classes. Just like you would have been 4 years ago.
I had hesitated, knew how much it would hurt, sobs caused such a tightness in my chest.....
But, driving by the carpark, where I used to pick you up after some footy practise, it became all so worth it to me.
Memories came flooding back, and I could see you clearly standing there. The last one out as usual, messing about, football kit a mess, socks scrunched down, laces undone and a bag full of scrunced up school books. Me saying 'hurry up'. It making no difference.
Even that smell came back to me.... sweaty football fieldy smell. Yuk to many...lovely to me.
Drove then for a while....not really knowing where for a while.
Some will say, dont upset yourself, try to keep busy. And for a lot of the time this maybe the best, just to get on.
But sometimes, no matter how it hurts, like any mother.
I just want to feel like Im with my son.
Doesnt matter, how busy, occupied or grief controlled I seem to be Taylor, just know that Im always 'with you'
I love you
Mum xx
I love you Taylor....
I think the days and especially the night before will always be worse for me.
Took Tori childminders today. I have to pass nearby your school but today instead of going the street by it, after dropping Tori, I drove to the school and turned into it.
It was 9.15. All the children were in their classes. Just like you would have been 4 years ago.
I had hesitated, knew how much it would hurt, sobs caused such a tightness in my chest.....
But, driving by the carpark, where I used to pick you up after some footy practise, it became all so worth it to me.
Memories came flooding back, and I could see you clearly standing there. The last one out as usual, messing about, football kit a mess, socks scrunched down, laces undone and a bag full of scrunced up school books. Me saying 'hurry up'. It making no difference.
Even that smell came back to me.... sweaty football fieldy smell. Yuk to many...lovely to me.
Drove then for a while....not really knowing where for a while.
Some will say, dont upset yourself, try to keep busy. And for a lot of the time this maybe the best, just to get on.
But sometimes, no matter how it hurts, like any mother.
I just want to feel like Im with my son.
Doesnt matter, how busy, occupied or grief controlled I seem to be Taylor, just know that Im always 'with you'
I love you
Mum xx
I really don't like september its never a happy start but the memories are what get you through i guess.
I will be thinking about you more than ever tomorrow, i thought i would write today incase i don't get time tomorrow.
I dont come on here much but i know you know i'm thinking about you. Its funny sometimes ill do something embarrassing and think oh no i hope tay's not watching he will think i'm such an idiot!
Well just deciding on which flowers to get tomorrow? I like to get different ones each time wish i could design my own and call them tay-lors!
I love you & miss you so much.
x x
P.s Whats with all the spiders tay...you know i hate them! I hope you don't find my " situations " funny!
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you dread the date coming up, you just want to crawl into bed pull the covers over your head and just escape reality, get away from a bit, be with your thoughts and maybe things will be ok,, 4 years Tay, 4 friggin years,,, and i still dont understand it. i still read the newspapers and think it wasnt you that day, this year ill be relasing the balloons and praying for you, your family and your friends in your hometown. xxx All my love.
I hate that it's September.
I thought that things like this get better with time,
But I still need you, why is that?
You're the only image in my mind
So I still see you... around.
I miss you, like everyday,
Wanna be with you, but you're away...
Said I miss you, missing you insane.
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